Monologue of a somewhat sluggish graduate ~

Warning: brain dump, not particularly legible, lots of brackets and emojis and bad grammar

Since graduating from uni I've been struggling to find motivation. Now that things have settled down (i.e. I've moved back home and am somewhat adjusted) there is this pressure (from who? where?) to be getting on with stuff. I've got a few projects on the go, started with enthusiasm, but now languishing and gathering dust. I applied for a job and am anxiously awaiting any sort of news. yIKES.

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AHH !!!!!! I feel like I've got lots of creative energy inside wanting to burst out but ... ?

Finishing uni is hard, cos with Fine Art we got our own studio space to go mad in for 3 years and I just miss that. Having a designated space to get out all my stuff and leave at the end of the day and come back tomorrow and it's all still there. 9-5 ish creating and work on my own stuff was really great and urgh I feel like an unmotivated slug at the moment. Getting up in the morning with purpose! I don't feel like I have a purpose at the moment and that's not good for my brain 😖 it was fun for a while but ummmmm
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I know this is normal. and I know it will pass, so I'm ok! and ultimately I know that God has a purpose for me and that I'll look back at this (hopefully short) period of life and I'll be able to see the good in it. I'll come out the other side having learned some valuable lessons. For the time being I'm going to keep pushing myself to make stuff and try not to give up on my projects (p.s. I opened an etsy shop and I'm trying to fight the voice in my head that's telling me it's already a flop!!), and I'm going to punch stupid anxieties in the face and try to get a job so I feel like I'm contributing to the world. Also I want to chill out and stop being stressy.          YEET!

I've really got into pinterest recently so I'm gonna insert some fun and inspirational images and leave you my url if you fancy a browse because my boards are really nice. ((Obviously none of these images are mine))
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I already feel better having typed this stuff out, and I'm getting over my fear of this blog. The longer I left it the worse it got but hopefully I'm back now, I have lots to share really. It just feel so old-school blogging...I kind of just want things to go back to 2014 when everyone had just-for-fun, unpolished blogs. aNYWAY that's a rant for another day.

P.S. if you can relate or have any advice for me pls reach out! We've got this, team!!!! 💪
P.P.S. follow me on insta @itsbethanymilward (I got some new pets!!)